Lupe Fiasco- Bitch Bad
“Fear is your best friend or your worst enemy. It’s like fire. If you can control it, it can cook for you; it can heat your house. If you can’t control it, it will burn everything around you and destroy you. If you can control your fear, it makes you more alert, like a deer coming across the lawn.”
I started painting this in Portland, OR. That was about two years ago. A love of mine painted the image in my head with his words. It stuck with me. It is quite a deep and emotional image, this one. I never finish her. But I always come back to her. Usually when I am feeling most sure of myself.
She means so much. She is so still and stoic on the brink of chaos. There’s a bigger story to her, though I’ll tell it as I continue to work on her. I always wish I could be like her. Maybe I am in some ways.
I don’t just speak in code. I often live my life in code. Everything is symbolic- it is all a part of some bigger message in my head and heart. It all means something, my actions, even if I don’t know it. They do.
Sometimes I live in a fantasy land. And a lot of times I don’t see why I can’t make those fantasies realities. So I strive for that. After all, they say the greatest love affair is the one you create in your mind. Well I think I can have that in real life. So I’ll continue to fight for it. Maybe people think that’s crazy. I don’t care.